Hey everyone :]
This is my first post to The Blog. I'm Kelsey and I like poetry, green tea, and teepees.
I have a quirky philosophical topic to toss out to the wind, and I wonder how many other people think about this idea. The other day I realized that, in my mind, I categorize time frames in my life, and they all have their own unique "feeling" that includes smells, colors, and emotions. An example would be the year when I was in specific shows at a theater, or the time when I lived in a 3-story flat as a kid. Anyway, even if it's a time period in my life that I wasn't particularly fond of, when I look back on it, I miss it.
Recently, I've analyzed this about myself, and I started to wonder what it will be like when the life I'm living right now becomes a part of the "past", and I start to miss the little things that happen to me at this point in my routine. Without a doubt, I'm going to miss my part-time job shelving books at a library, talking to co-workers with whom I'm not even that close, and having to hold onto hot tea because it's too cold. It kind of started to weird me out thinking about my life as if I'm viewing it from the future. At the same time, though, it made me start to appreciate everything I'm doing right now, from my slightly frustrating Political Science class, to hoodie I wear all the time, to the schedule I have at work. Because at some point, even though I'll be in another stage of life that I hope to like just the same, I'll miss where I am now.
Just a random thought, tell me if you've experienced similar things! Hope you're all having a lovely autumn.
Kelsey
kelsey...
ReplyDelete1. i OWN a teepee
2. i think memory is a powerful thing. it's an amazing thing. it's a beautiful thing to remember; we grow and learn from those things that we call back to our minds, analyze, and gain wisdom from. we can shut our eyes and see the past being played out as our minds recall events that have happened already and will never happen the same way again.
i also think memory is a frightening thing. when looking back, a person can alter how things actually happened in his or her mind. two people in the same situation can look back upon a memory of a particular time and remember it completely differently. no person, even if they were in exactly the same place at the same time as you were, will remember that place and time as you do.
being a sentimental person, i also look back at memories and miss them. i miss the way my grandpa smelled when i sat in his lap, i miss the few memories i have of my mom and dad and i living together in our first home, i miss singing in choir in high school, i miss being sixteen and feeling awkward at my first year of community college, i miss my dad reading to me from the Bible when i was very little and i miss my young self pleading with him to explain to me what "circumcision" meant, because it kept coming up in the old testament so it had to be important, i miss living in california, and i miss how my life was just two short months ago.
i miss all of it, yet when i am completely honest and realistic with my sentimental self, i know that none of those times in my life were anywhere near perfect, and each of those times in my life i faced struggles and i felt pain and i missed the time before it.
none of this really has a point, but i completely understand what you are talking about, and these are my thoughts on the matter.
oh, and one more thing: this is why i love to keep a journal, and then hold on to them so my future self can be more realistic with my past. writing down those struggles and the pain and about the times i missed before helps me keep an honest perspective, and it also helps me remember important things i learned from various past moments.
ReplyDeleteI keep a diary, too! I've kept one basically every day since I was 11. I literally have dozens of journals that I often go back and read. When I don't get to write in my diary, I often feel too emotionally "full", and it makes me irritable. My diary is soooo helpful in figuring myself out. I totally understand. It's a lifesaver :]
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm glad you understand the sentimental thing, too.
oh, and i am insanely jealous of your teepee, and one day, you and i and elisabeth and anyone else we know have to go to a field and have a teepee picnic and take photographs. i've always wanted to live like a native american :]
I like this conversation...and I totally agree. (Pretty much what my senior show thesis is about.) Memories are a funny thing indeed...I was going to write a post about what I've learned in college but I think I will elaborate on this topic instead, based on something I wrote recently.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, teepee time please! :)
you two...come to minnesota when it gets warm (if i'm still here...) and we'll go out to my dad's woods and live in the teepee :)
ReplyDeleteyes! i've never been to minnesota. you better stay there just a little longer :)
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